| Re: Not Eating + Exercise + Throwing Up
Hi Shell,
I'm new to this site too, but I tottaly relate to your situation, I was just like you. I still am trying to complete recover from my ED but I know it will take along time. The thing is you are going down a path that is only going to get worse. At first it may have seemed worth it becuase you lost weight so fast, but with ED you will never feel like your losing enough. When I first started throwing up everythig I ate and excersing ritually, I lost alot of weight. When I came hope from college after my first quater my parents kept telling me I looked really good, that only made me feel worse (like I needed to lose weight in the first place, and that I needed to continue to do it). After several more months of the same routine I was always tried, weak, dizzy, and depressed. I would always brake down and cry and never wanted to do things with my friends. I was even at the point where I was throwing up blood. Heres the thing you have to realize, doing theses things to your body will never make you happy. You have to want to get better for yourself not anyone else. Its hard to make your self realize that your sick. It sounds like you want to lose the weight but your misserable, so you have to ask yourself is losing even more weight really going to make you happier? I know its really hard, and for me I got help talking to my bf becuase at the time he was the only I felt could help, even though he really didn't understand. I think talking on this forum is a really good start. I have never been to thearpy myself basically because I don't want to admit to other people that I have a problem, even though I obviously did and still kind of do. After talking on this site and reading other peoples posts its really comforting to know that there are others who feel the same way and trust me your not alone. Also this site seems like theres alot of people who can offer you great advice and hopefully make things alittle eaiser. I hope by reading a little of my story you know your not alone, and I am doing alot better then I was a year ago, so I hope you realize you can get better you just have to want it for youself and there are people here to help you!!!!!!
Best of Luck,
leash
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.. I'm new here. I'm so glad I found this forum. I'm new to this whole thing. Well lately I have been feeling horrible about myself... I am so unhappy with my weight.. I have been not eating for a while.. and I've been exercising then throwing up because I would get so sick after it.. I feel weak all the time, dizzy.. I use to weigh 130 now I weigh 110lbs.. I don't want to stop though, I want to be 100lbs or less.. I feel so fat all the time.. I went to the gym after not eating, I ended up working myself so hard, then I went to the bathroom and got sick.. I threw up a total of 7 times.. and a lot.. but it was all water.. I never ate anything .. its horrible I know.. but that is what I do like 3 times a week... and I don't eat like at all..sometimes I will probably have a yogurt a day...... yesterday I ate a a slice of pizza and ended up crying, I was so depressed I felt like a fat pig after I had it ate.. so I ended up throwing it up.. I guess I am anorexic and bulemic... my mom askes me if I ate and I end up lying to her...I don't want her to find out.. you don't have to reply to this if you don't want... it's ok... well thanks for taking the time to read this..
wow thats a long time when I write it!!) and it just gets harder. Please try and talk to someone who can get you set up with a healthy way to loose weight b/c what you are doing is so not good for ya and it just gets worse!! 
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