Re: New and need help
Yes, I think this could be a wake up call for you. Throwing up 5x a week for 20 years...it is remarkable you haven't had serious problems yet. I was bulimic for nine years and have developed Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, which is hell in itself. As you know, you are at risk for serious complications, such as a heart attack or stroke, even if you haven't had any real health complications yet. Throwing up is never OK, but 5X a week is a great risk..I know, I used to throw up every day, sometimes twice a day. Your body could hold out another 20 years without complications or you could get very ill tomorrow..you just never know. So please seek treatment NOW. Therapy, medication if necessary. Find a good support group. Tell your husband, your trusted friends and family. No one ever gets well when they are still in the secretive mode about their ED.
To answer your other question...almost all bulimics have episodes where they just can't throw up. It has happened to me many times, mostly years ago, but even recently I have had episodes where I couldn't throw up but not even 30% of what I had eaten. I think it is physical and emotional. If a person is really having emotional issues with their bulimia and wanting to not throw up (while trying to throw up) it could inhibit a purge. Also, sometimes a body just rejects vomiting...like it is saying "sorry, not today..I can't handle it..." It usuallly doesn't last but it could. At any rate, if your body is actually rejecting bulimia that means it is tired of it, and I know you are mentally exhausted with it too.
Coming clean about your ED is the first step; Then treatment.
Best of luck
Last edited by Natalie00; 01-22-2006 at 03:18 PM.