Re: Why cant I be average?
mops, it's GREAT that you're recognizing this, do you realize that? when we start to see how our ED's make us feel "not average/normal," it gives us a reason to fight them, you know? are you in therapy? if not, you should be. You CAN be "average," just like your friends, but you need therapy to beat your ed and recover so you can live happily and freely.
i feel the same way you do often though, so i know what you're saying. but i just keep telling myself that i'll get to that point and be able to eat freely and not worry all the time about every little calorie. without therapy, i don't know if i'd have that confidence though, so that's why i hope you are either already in it or ready to start. good luck!