mops41288

Is it odd that I actually miss being hungry all the time? Even though I still restrict my calories on most days, lately I havent been able too (its only because my family has been around more) Even though I was miserable when I was restricting I actually miss the feel of my stomach being empty or growling. I mean I felt so "pure" during this time I guess its also a control thing. I also miss seeing the numbers on the scale being dangerously low, it was like a reward for me to see the numbers keep going lower and lower. Even though Im still considered "underweight" for my height the thought that I weigh more now is depressing to me. I also miss seeing my shoulder blades in the mirror and my collar bones sticking out more. Am I alone in this kind of feeling?