It's back.... - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

Lizrox · 08-17-2006, 03:07 PM

My anorexia is back...

I am from the Substance abuse board. I also have been suffering from Anorexia off and on since age 14. I was hospitalized for it for 3 months...

Now that I am away from the drug (tramadol) my eating disorder is back. I don't eat all day except for drinking. I love cappuccinno and can drink ten cups of it all day. I also drink Nestea. I eat a light dinner.

I weigh myself at least a dozen times a day. I am 5'7". As long as I am between 145-149 pounds I am happy but I just weighed myself and I weighed 150.2

I just took 4 tablespoons of MOM (milk of magnesia) and plan on picking up some ex-lax later. I can't believe this; I'm developing bulimia now..

Should I have my husband hide the scale?? I think I would feel better if I didn't weigh myself everyday...

I can't believe this...

any suggestions..

Liz
aka-LizRox

Cup of coffee · 08-17-2006, 07:36 PM

Scales are our enemy! I do not and will not own one. I hate it when I visit a friend and they have one in their bathroom. When I first got rid of mine I would find any excuse to go to any store that had a scale so I could weigh myself, I would take it out of the package and stand on it. I would make sure no one was around. So, yes have your husband get rid of the scale.

I will say a little prayer for you.

tallycat · 08-17-2006, 07:50 PM

I agree...chuck the scale, it's horrible to let it ruin your life after you've quit drugs. But from personal experience, I think I understand your situation. Having ANY addiction gives you this major focus, one that has a definite satisfaction in obsessing over and then fulfilling it. Drinking, drugs, eating disorder - they all kind of scratch this 'itch' for SOMETHING I can do to make me think about anything but...well, reality. I had to find a healthy *variety* of things to focus on, I think. Hobbies? Crafts? Sports? Exercise? I'm not sure what you're into, and it's sometimes hard to remember after you've been out of it for a while...but try and see if you can give that energy a good place to go, ok?

case1 · 08-18-2006, 11:10 AM

i wish i had the willpower to chuck my scale, that evil device can make or break my whole day. i step on every morning and if it is even .5 lbs heavier i flip out, thinking how can that be i hardly eat enough to sustain my weight let alone gain some. and i know there are so may factors that can alter body weight, but the numbers on the scale rule over any rational thinking, so yes if you have the willpower chuck it!!