Desperate - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

girlie · 12-29-2000, 12:49 AM

Hi. Im new to this message board, and heres my problem...
I am a 14 year old girl and i am 5'9 and i used to be 125 lbs but now i am 135. This weight gain has happened recently after i got off these 'fat preditor' pills. It seems that ever since ive been off them, all i do is eat! Even my two hours of volleyball practice (ie. running) and attemps at home exercize, cant burn off all the calories that i consume. I try to tell myself "Dont eat that" or "think of how you always regret eating it after you do" but it doesnt stop me, i just eat anyway... and the scary thing is that im not hungry when i eat... its just an urge! And i mean, i eat like non-stop, ill put one food down and rush for another. Im so scared. Ive always been very concerned about my weight (as you can sorta tell by the diet pill thing, which by the way, i didnt even lose one pound from them), and i just want to go for the fastest way to lose weight, and i dont care what it is, as long as it works... thats the way ive always been. (I want to model too.)
Ok heres the main point... I want to be anorexic and bulimic... very badly, but the thing is, my dumb self cant even stop eating for one minute, let alone permanately. Im on the verge of cutting all my fingers off...
Please Please Please tell me how to stop this aweful curse of constant eating...

Maci · 12-29-2000, 09:47 AM

Hi Girlie. You DO NOT want to be anorexic or bulimic. Believe me, it's far less glamorous than you might think. From your height and weight, I would guess you are already very thin. Getting thinner will not help you become a model. It will only make you look sick and unhealthy. So you've gained 10 pounds. You are still growing! Also, you may not be aware of this, but muscle weighs more than fat. Since you are involved in sports, the weight you have gained may be muscle weight, not fat weight. Eating is not unhealthy....NOT eating is. Please be careful. Read some of the other posts and you will see that an eating disorder is not what you want.

GlittRBabY00 · 12-30-2000, 09:27 PM

Hi i read your post and i have to say i am the same way. except i am heavily overweight. i am 16 and i weigh over 300lbs i eat and eat when im not hungry especially i am so bored so much of the time and i just feel like there is something missig in my life its almost like food is my best friend or something it is there to comfort me when i am down or scared or bored which i usually am bored. maybe you should look into that are you missing something in your life. Another thing i have to tell you... usually what you think is non stop eating is not really that much at all its maybe just bordum.... hopefully you can figure all this out.
goodluck
Cortney