Mena3

Well I've finally been able to admit to someone the other day that I have a food issue and I think an eating disorder......I just don't know which one. My whole life I've been really active and athletic, but I've always struggled with binge eating. I grew up exercising everday for hours on end to counteract my bad eating habits. I always feel depressed and guilty after I binge, but I can't stop myself. I don't go to such extreme exercisng as much now, but I still do put my body through pretty intense exercise. In the past year, I've used diet pills which made me feel better about my binge eating, but a couple of months ago I stopped using them. I've never been able to vomit my food (I always wish I could). I feel as though I cannot control anything in my life, and all I think about is losing weight and food. This problem has consumed my whole life and my self esteem and self image. I know I don't appear overweight to the average person, but when I look in the mirrow I feel huge and disgusting. Is this Bulimia or Binge Eating Disorder? I want to get help to be able to enjoy life. Sorry this was such a long post.