trying to cope - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

sunflower sarah · 04-30-2001, 01:02 PM

Coping is so hard, i now purge after everything i eat i am severly depressed and i hate my boyfriend i want to break up with him but dont know how to tell him. no one knows about my ED and i dont really want anyone to know, but i want to stop feeling depressed and i want to stop being tired all the time. i sleep 12-16 hours a day, it is not normal!!!!!!! i have tried to set my alarm to wake up earlier but i cant my eyes dont want to open so i turn my alarm off and i go back to sleep, it seems my body dosent want to wake up till 3 pm. well that was very unrelated to the ED message board sorry i got carried away. more on the ED topic. I am scared my dad and sis are getting suspicious cos i finish my dinner and then pretend to go for a shower or wash my face or brush my teeth, so i can go and purge. and i am pretty sure i heard foot steps out side the bathroom door today i think it was my sis. well thanx everyone u guys r great for listening

LilyElise · 04-30-2001, 07:06 PM

Sarah,
I think if I was you I would first break up with the boyfriend (something I recently did myself b/c of my ED). It's unbelievable the amount of stress guys can bring into your life. I'm sorry but I don't know very much about bulimia. I do know that if you're tired all the time you could have a medical problem like anemia or mono. If you're anemic an iron pill will take care of it.
Purging is so dangerous to your health. If you can't get help for you do it for your family. Can you imagine what their lives would be like without you? Coping is hard, but in therapy they'll teach you new ways to deal with the upsetting things in your life and you'll be much much happier. I have a friend that was bulimic and she mentioned feeling depressed to. She eventually got to the point when purging didn't help her anymore with her problems and she wanted to committ suicide. Purging is not a solution it's just a temporary fix. My friend(her name is Alexis) got help and she's now so much happier. I know you might not be ready to get help yet and I understand that b/c i'm not ready to get help yet with a relapse in my anorexia. I'm here anytime you want to talk.
Lily

sunflower sarah · 05-02-2001, 08:06 AM

well i am actually ignoring him at the moment in hope that he gets the picture that i dont want to be with him, i dont call him and i lock the door and i close the curtains. so i hope he will leave me alone. thanx for the reply it helped. hmm i think u wrote about me maybe having anemia. i actually got tested for it today and my doctor was asking me some really horrible questions. i think he knows he was asking me what i eat and how many times a day. i told him everything was normal and i eat 3 times a day. so i hope he belives me cos i dont need him to complicate my life at the moment well thanx a whole bunch by

snailmailqueen · 05-02-2001, 09:14 AM

i know its hard, ive had anorexic tendencies, bulimia, now i have BED. im struggling hard. i messed up yesterday.

LilBear21 · 05-02-2001, 11:13 AM

What is BED?