feel sooo fat - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

Persophone · 04-27-2001, 04:03 PM

I was doing so "good".... eating just enough to keep going.. not really even hungry anymore.. and the last few days I have been soo hungry I don't know why...so I have been eating more... The scale says I have gained about 1 pound but I feel like my face looks round and full...my legs and stomach feel huge.... I am soo mad at myself for allowing myself to eat just because I thought I was hungry...I mean...so what..if my stomach growls....it should growl...that's how I know it is using up all the disgusting fat on my body.

Sorry..I am disgusted with myself

Rachel

Running Queen · 04-28-2001, 11:07 PM

Rachel- Don't feel fat! One pound is great! Think of gaining weight as medicine...you become stronger with each "dose" of medicine.

I totally understand how you feel! When I started gaining weight a couple months ago, I freaked out! I got scared and slipped back into my old anorexic ways. But one I realized that I had more energy and felt better with each pound, it wasn't so bad.

Don't beat up on yourself! Keep trying to get better!

Love, Jen

Persophone · 04-29-2001, 06:36 AM

Jen,

Thanks for the encouragement.....the problem is though is that I am not "too" skinny....and I really don't need to or want to gain weight!!

Rachel

Running Queen · 04-29-2001, 05:06 PM

Rachel-
If you aren't too skinny, then I would just recommend staying healthy. That is the most important thing! But be careful, because eating disorders come when you think you don't have one. Good luck!

Love, Jen

LilBear21 · 05-01-2001, 09:07 PM

Rachel,

I had the same sort of problem these past few days. I have not let myself throw up ANYTHING for about a week, because it is so unhealthy. But because I cannot purge, I have been running a lot more, to burn off those few things I do eat, and then, because of all the running, I guess, I got really hungry. I tried to ignore it, but it wouldn't go away. I ate. Not a lot, just a little more. Graham crackers! (Mmm, they were very good). Anyway, I haven't gained weight, but I haven't lost any either and I have eaten dinner for the past two days and I feel like I am losing control of things.

I am going to go run now and try to figure out how to get things back on the right track.

Good luck.

-Lilbear