NIGHTMARES AND BINGING - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

hollifina · 05-09-2001, 03:37 AM

Okay I guess I need some help evaluating this. I have cronic nightmares, and I find myself waking up in the middle of the night to go get some food so that I can go back to sleep. I am so disgusted with myself I dont even brush my teeth, and I feel like I have been developing cavities. Ever since I moved back in my mom's house I feel like I am a little girl again with all of these emotions and I loose my individuality around my mom. She makes me sooo angry and I hate living with her, yet I am appreciative of the space, but tired of taking the self-hatred out on myself. My nightmares cause me great distress and I am not sure what to do. I guess I am just asking for help. Thanks so much.

LilyElise · 05-10-2001, 05:25 PM

That sounds very much like the beginnings of an eating disorder to me. Overeating is an eating disorder too. Controling what you eat makes you feel more in control when you're upset about something. Like when you use food to comfort you at night. I'm not trying to be critical, I use not eating to make me feel better. In the long run it's not worth it and it's better for you to work out what's bothering you. I would talk to my mother if I was you. How much longer will you be at home?
Lily

hollifina · 05-10-2001, 11:26 PM

LilyElise,
UNfortunately I do not know how long I am going to be here living with my mom, but it sucks let me tell you. My brother is such an *** , and he is going through this weird phase since he broke up with his girlfriend and is being so hateful and I hate living with him too. I am just trying to survive until my mission trip to Africa in the middle of June. I dont even know what I am doing next semester, and I wish to God that God would clue me in on where I should go to school and what i should do, because all I know is that I cannot live at home because I am going crazy, binging, and having horrible memories from my childhood.