Persophone

Hi everyone,

I have realized that I am the hardest on myself when I am not hungry. Meaning, that if my stomach is not growling and I don't feel a little weak and dizzy then I must have eaten too much and that's when I start "beating myself up" mentally. I will eat a large bowl of salad for dinner and then I start second guessing the calorie count..what if I was wrong? what if it really had 60 calories instead of 40 calories? how come if all I ate today was 400 calories I am not hungry? Did I eat something that I just don't remember? or worse....forgot to count? I'm not saying that I am not hungry ever..there are times that the hunger is overwhelming but what bothers me is the way a bowl of salad can fill me up..it makes me feel like I should have eaten less. I hate feeling full.

also... Those therapists never called me back! Guess they aren't the kind of people I really want to turn to anyhow. I called someone else last night (out of the phone book) and he called me back within the hour and I am going to see him today. He specializes in depression, anxiety and eating disorders. Appropriate since I probably suffer from all 3!

I just realized....I guess I really don't have a question..lol

Thanks for listening,
Rachel

PS.. I think I realized how bad my problem was when I was really sick and couldn't sleep at all and refused to take Nyquil because I couldn't help but think.."Well, if it has 12% alcohol by volume then it must be really high in calories"


[This message has been edited by Persophone (edited 05-15-2001).]