Maybe going that way - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

QD!! · 05-17-2001, 08:10 AM

i'm kinda scared i'mnot eating the way i should i dont eat at the same time as everyone else i don't eat lunch i don't eat breakfast or dinner if i canget away with, i don't want to be anorexic but i can't seem to stop thinking about how much i eat and how fat i am. a few weeks agao i actually succeeded in making myself throw up but i was so scared and freaked out about it i don't know what to do. i can't tell my parents cos they'd freak and i don't want to have to deal with that what should i do?

cutenbrat · 05-17-2001, 11:40 AM

Even if you dont' want to it is best to tell your parents and get some help before you get in even deeper. Go down the message board and read some of the messages and consider; is this what you really want for your life? Misery? I pray you don't.
God Bless.

QD!! · 05-17-2001, 11:43 AM

i've been reading them for most of the day a trying to figure out what to do i nearly threw up my dinner earlier but i just couldn't not cos i didn't want to but i couldn't. I try to stop thinking about it but it's really hard and everyone else around me it's making it worse i look at my friends and wonder why i can't be like them but i don't want to be like them i want to be thin and i don't know how else to do it.

Persophone · 05-17-2001, 07:31 PM

QD,

First, you need to be careful about what your definition of "thin" is. Is it based on valid medical height/weight charts and/or BMI? Or are you basing it on your friends weights? Remember that once you let this take over your mind you probably won't even realize when you are thin (if you aren't already)... which 1. what good is it when you have no idea that you are thin and can't even enjoy it 2. since you don't see yourself as thin won't be able to stop.

There are lots of other (much better) ways to become "thin". By decreasing calorie intake by 500 calories (from a normal healthy intake!) a day you should lose about a pound a week (3500 cals = 1 pound) add some aerobic exercise and some weight resistance a few times a week and you may lose a little more even.

As far as telling your parents...I guess it depends how old you are. If you are living at home and still relying on them then they are the ones that you should go to. They may not understand but I could almost guarantee that they would have your best interest at heart and once they got over some possible shock or even anger I bet they would want to help you and even be glad you came to them.

I have lost 18 pounds in the last 2 months and honestly do not think that I look any different. I look in the mirror (alot) naked and try hard to see it....I want to see it but I can't. How is it possible to lose almost 20 pounds and not look any different? The answer is probably.."It's not" part of me knows that...

Rachel