fear of growing up - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

rad916 · 10-05-2001, 11:01 AM

am I abnormal? I have this fear of growing up, getting my period, have a chest and a figure. Cuz unfortunately I have a figure. Not a big one, but I do have a chest, like a small B or a big A, and I'm only 4'11" so i feel like I should be totally flat. The reason I started not eating was to stop myself from maturing, but yet people keep telling me what a great figure I have! It makes me cry! does anyone else have this fear too? doesn't having a figure make you feel fat??? how do you stop yourself from getting old physically????

strandedagain · 10-05-2001, 07:42 PM

rad916,
Don't be afraid to grow up. I am not sure how old you are, but I am guessing 17 or 18. We all have to grow old. And you know there is nothing wrong with that. Maturing does not have to be a bad thing. Sure our bodies begin to look differently, but we are suppose to. We have to look different from the guys you know. ; )
For years I would try to hide my breasts. I felt that they were my worst enemy and every guy was looking at them. And they probably were. : (. But then there comes a time when there is just no hiding the darn things. Be proud to be female. It is great to be female. How many guys do you know that can have babies? : ) Be proud to be female , hold your chin up dear.
You need nurishment for your body. And not eating is not stopping you from budding.

[This message has been edited by strandedagain (edited 10-06-2001).]

rad916 · 10-06-2001, 06:01 PM

strandedagain, thanks for your answer. I actually had a very serious talk with my boyfriend last night and told him my fears. He told me that he thinks Im beautiful the way I am. He also told me that I should be proud of being a "woman." Combined with your answer it felt pretty good

It's just that sometimes I'm so scared to be old. I hate it so much that I actually do this to myself just to stop maturing. I know it's rediculous, I just can't help it. It's good to know that you felt this way too. Thanks