Afraid of failing - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

Ashlee · 10-02-2001, 07:24 AM

I hate my life! Every day just seems to get worse and worse. It's always the exact same and just the thought of going to school again makes me miserable. It seems like it's just going to go on like this forever and ever. I've got holidays now but they're almost over. Sometimes I feel like just getting my life over with, then I wouldn't have to feel like this anymore. That scares me because other times I think just a few more years, then I can get out of here and I wouldn't have to worry about tests and exams and assignments. What I really hate is how my parents act about my exams this year (I'm sitting 5th Form Certificate). They think it's the most important thing in the world and they expect me to do so well because I did OK in the 3rd and 4th form, but this year has been next to impossible for me. I just can't keep up any more and I'm really scared I'm going to fail and then what would I do? Sorry about all this complaining, I know it's completely irrelivant to everything.

CloudyDaze · 10-02-2001, 02:18 PM

Hey there, what year are you in school in American terms? There are things that you can do if you absolutely hate school. Would your parents ever consider letting you be homeschooled for like half of your classes? There is no reason to hate life right now just because you are a teenager and figure if you just hang on it'll get okay. You should be allowed to make adjustments to enjoy life now!

Ashlee · 10-03-2001, 09:49 PM

I don't really know about different grades so I don't know what I'm in but I'm 16 if that helps. Thanks for the sugestion but I don't really think home schooling is for me besides my parents would never agree to it. Besides I don't think that it is only that I hate school so much, I just hate my life in general. I think I'm just going to stick with school for the last few years and then it's over with. Anyway, for once I am going to stop complaining and feeling sorry for myself because I know that some people have far more serious problems then I have.

Ashlee · 10-14-2001, 09:26 PM

Thanks Bee Bee,
I relise that I made my posts sound a lot like I was blaming my parents for everything and I know that wasn't fair. It's really not their fault, like you said, they just want me to do my best which I guess I don't always do anymore. I know everyone always says, "talk to your parents, tell them how you feel" and so on, but I really can't do that with my mum. We just never really talk about our feelings and I would be far to embarressed to ever start now besides I don't think I really want to.
-Ashlee