i'm so so sorry for leaving - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

rad916 · 02-09-2002, 05:20 PM

oh lord, ive missed this place like crazy. ive felty so alone for so long. to everyone, especially cloudy, ashlee, eminem, fiona, and pt, im sorry for not being here for year. my computer's been screwed and i have not been able to come to the board. my G-d I missed you all. please please please tell me everything going on. i want to know it all. with me, well, i didn't get into the israel school that i told you about, they said I had "medical issues" and they could not accept me. it sucks royally but im getting over it. iumm just gonna go to college next year. for me and my bf-we've been awesome, i love him more and more each day. and for my eating, ive been eating fine but im fat as a cow. i def way over 100 and im busting out of everything. i guess thats what happens when you dont have support from you friends-namely you guys. ok, so guys, please write back an dtell me EVERYTHING, I wantg massive updates. and new ppl -hi, im rachel, if you need anything you can come to me!!!so all of you, be better friends than i have been and wb, k? i love you and miss you all.
luv and luck,

Rachel

Ashlee · 02-09-2002, 06:03 PM

Hi Rachel! Welcome back!!!

What are you talking about?? You've been a GREAT friend! I'm so glad you're back, I've really missed talking to you.

I'm sorry you didn't get into the school you wanted, I know it ment a lot to you. But another College wont be that bad either, will it?

Sorry this isn't long like you asked, but I have to go out in a few minutes, so I better go.

Ashlee

fiona · 02-10-2002, 05:43 PM

Glad to see you back! I haven't been here too much lately either, don't feel bad. Not much has been going on with me. I've been swinging WILDLY between starving/binging/normal eating and I feel pretty crappy because of it. I'm very dissatisfied with my weight, I'm really rejecting the idea of being in my "healthy range" right now. But because I've been both starving AND binging, my weight has stayed about the same. Things with my boyfriend are fantastic, too! If only I could get my eating bak under control . . . I feel like I'm in an endless losing battle here

Talk to you soon!!!

Fiona

rad916 · 02-10-2002, 06:28 PM

hey guys! thanks for writing back, it was so good to hear from you both.
fiona-im glad things with your boyfriend are awesome-that makes me so happy. but with your eating? well, im not so happy. i wish there was something i could do. now that im eating healthier it makes me want other people to also. i was thinking, i know i was supposed to do this with cloudy an dpt but it didn't end up happening, what if we, like a bunch of us, anyone who wanted to join, have a kinda suport group thing where we all make goals for the week, small or big, try to do them, and discuss at that end of that week, or post at the ned of the week, the results. would that help you? get back to me, k?
and ash-thatnks so much for writing back, but you still owe me a letter of update

k?
luv and luck to you both,

rachel
ps-i still want to know whats going on wih the rest of you!

Ashlee · 02-11-2002, 12:36 AM

Hey Rachel.

Sorry about the rushed reply before, but there really isn't a lot to say about me anyway. Let's see, School started about 2 weeks ago. I don't know if that's good or bad yet. Now that it's started, I'm so busy with school and after school sports and classes, I hardly have any time to 'sulk' about my life, and feel so low all the time. On the other hand, I haven't eaten nearly as much as I was in the holidays, and I NEVER eat at school. I guess I'm embarressed or something... and I know how stupid that sounds. I guess that's something I have to work on now.

Well, I warned you there wasn't really a lot to say about me... sorry. Tell us more about you instead.

Ashlee