Yes, I know what you mean. Monitering the food brings some safety into it. For now you can monitor, just try to keep the calories at a healthy level. Notice how that feels and what you feel like before and after you eat. You'll get used to what the right amount feels like better and then you can try eating one meal or snack a day without monitoring except for hunger, then you can increase that to two, etc. I would have to say that monitoring isn't necessarily bad as long as you arn't restricting or binging. It may make you feel more safe to expand your food choices, too, if you write down what you eat. I know that for me I have about 10 foods that I eat and that's it. Sometimes I'm willing to try something new as long as I know that I still ate a reasonable amount of calories that day. You can do this! I'm SOO proud of you for going 5 days! Things might not get easier for a time. Just take it one day and one meal at a time. Don't worry about how you'll manage to not binge tomorrow or for a long time. Just think about today. And again, GOOD JOB!!!! (This is how I feel for you ->
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