it would be so great if there was some magical words that somebody could say to make it click in the head that an ED is so not worth what you have to give up for it. unfortunately there's not, it's something that you have to feel for yourself. and i am not one to give advice, but maybe one way to look at it is to see what a bad deal you are getting: with the eating disorder you get a false sense of control, a dark feeling that hardly ever goes away, perhaps a fleeting moment of vain "happiness" if the scale drops a pound. in return for all that the ED is "giving" you, you give up everything, any chance to lead a normal life (i mean can you even go out to lunch with a friend without the ED getting in the way?). you risk damaging relationships with friends and family, your damaging your health (mentally and physically). the way i see it is like the ED is a security blanket, an escape from having to deal with reality and whatever is so scary about it that you can't face. all you have to deal with is this one problem that you convince yourself you have control over. the reality is that YOU DONT. and the longer you wait to deal with it, the harder it will be to let go, the greater the damage will be. you're missing out on living.
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