firsts off i wanted to say hi. you all seem like great people and i'll be posting here sooooo much!

Im curious if this is how it is for anyone else:
Ok, the only time i csan eat a "normal" meal (not involving a binge, or a binge/purge) is AFTER i have JUST binged and purged It's about the only time i can control my eating! weird huh? is this how it is for anyone else?