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singingsmiles · 07-25-2002, 10:22 PM

Hi everyone! I'm new to these boards. I recently became anorexic and am looking for some support and help. My parents have thought that I'm anorexic for...years. At those times I was not, but I am now, but deny any fact to them. A couple of my close friends know, but have promised me that they won't tell anyone until I give them the go ahead to. I'm scared of what may happen to me, but even though I'm new in the whole thing, I can't help but weigh myself all the time and not eat much...

Ashlee · 07-26-2002, 03:41 AM

Hey there! Welcome to HealthBoards!

I know that coming out into the open about your eating disorder is one of the most difficult steps that one must make in order for them to begin recovery. You’ve already told a few friends, and that’s great that you were able to talk to them about it. The next step – as you well know – is to find yourself some professional help. Please, PLEASE try to talk to your parents about this; it’s far too dangerous to keep a secret. If you honestly can’t bring yourself to talk to them, then go and find someone else you trust.

It doesn’t matter if you’ve been anorexic for three months or three years – the time isn’t the issue here. The thing is, you have a serious problem that WILL get the better of you if you don’t do something to stop it.

I do hope that you will get the help that you need and deserve very soon. It’s so important... and you’ll be so happy you made the decision when you look back years from now.

Take care,
Ashlee

catgirl · 07-26-2002, 07:10 AM

Hi Sing

Listen to Ashlee, she is a wealth of information and always right !!! She got that from me, hehehehehe

I understand your pain and your fear. As you probably know this ED affects your mind. You need to fight this demon in your mind.

Quit weighing yourself for #1. Then you have to start telling your mind the opposite of what it says when your mind says you are fat, you shouldn't have eaten this, I've gained weight, etc.

It's hard I know, but I know that everyone single person afflicted with this disease has the power to overcome it. If we are strong enough to control our food intake, then we are stong eneough to fight the ED demon.

Post here often & we will help as much as we can. Good Luck Cat

singingsmiles · 07-26-2002, 12:50 PM

Thank you for the warm welcome! I hope that posting here and hearing the stories of others will give me the confidence to go to someone for help, so that I can get better. But as I have read from other posts I have found myself to be very similar to some others here. I, too, am afraid that going to someone for 'help' will make me 'fat.' And that is what I am trying to get away from. I'm sick of being 'fat'. I eat as little as possible, and basically will only eat when my parents are around, so that they don't think there is something wrong with me. Thanks for the support you've shown me so far!
--Katie

catgirl · 07-26-2002, 01:33 PM

Sing,

I can assure you without a doubt that you will never get fat. Do you know of any anorexic/bulemic that has ever been fat, even after they have conquered this disease?

I think not. So please, go to a counselor and get the help you need in order to fight this demon. We can help you somewhat here, but it is very difficult to advise and help without face to face interaction and just think of all those pages of typing, LOL.

We will help as much as we can. That is one reason I am here. I followed JJay and Ashless over from the depression board to help them. I am a former anorexic, now well, and I know full well what you gals are dealing with, so I want to help all of you in any manner I can.

Believe me, you can get well and not get fat!!! I'm not

Cat