catgirl

Hi Itty

Well, I have to say, I am glad you have put on some weight, even if it's low. It's a start. But please don't lose any more if you can. Make it a goal to maintain your current weight.

For just being diagnosed in 2000, your doing fantastic.

By the way, yes, that feeling will go away, eventually. But you need to give it time.

My 1st bout w/anorexia was when I was 16. I knew I needed to do something when I almost passed out walking down the hall at school.

I gained some weight like you did. Not a whole lot, but I wasn't a walking skelaton anymore, but still low. I maintained that weight until my 2nd bout at the age of 20, but I never did get as low as I did the 1st time. Recovered and made myself gain some weight. Yet again, too low, but decent enough to pass doctors inspection.

I maintained this weight for years, fought the feelings, etc. Untill, walah, 1 day at the age of 33, all of a sudden, I have to watch my weight again and those horrible feelings associated with ED are gone. I'm eating normally and whenever I want and yes, I throw in an occasional desert, while I continue to watch my weight by exercising and trying to eat health. BUT THE ANOREXIC FEELINGS FOR THE MOST PART ARE GONE. Yes, occasionaly they pop up, especially if I've eaten a yummy piece of cake, but for the most part are gone. I'm loving it. !

So in answer to your question, yes, hard work & determination, those feelings will go away.

Good girl Youv'e got half the battle won. Keep it up.

By the way, Ashlee's not from Australia, but next best thing, New Zealand. She'll be along shortly to welcome you and watch out, she'll talk your ear off Cat

[This message has been edited by catgirl (edited 07-30-2002).]