Bulimia - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

lissachick · 08-04-2002, 04:33 PM

OK I can never say things right so lets see if this make sense. I think or pretty much I know I'm bulimic but I don't know what to do. I'm only 16 and I had this problem before and I told my mom and she was worried about me but I got over it for like 1 1/2 months but I'm doing it again. The thing is my mood keeps changing. Like last night well beside the fact that I ate (didn't keep down) 1/2 gallon of ice cream than I freaked out after my bathroom visit and wanted to tell my mom but today I'm happy again and I don't think that I need to tell her but I know I wouldn't stop its like it has a life of its own. If I get just alittle upset I fight with myself not to binge and throw up but I always seem to lose. I'm so embarassed about this I don't want to go get treatment because I don't want people to know. what should I do any advice or anything. Am I bulimic? I sometimes do it once a week or sometimes like 3 or 4 times a day. Thanks for the help. This has been going on and off for like 6 months

melody · 08-04-2002, 08:54 PM

Lisa, it sounds like you are definitely bulimic. It's good that you told your mom before. So, it should be ok to tell her that the problem is back. There is nothing to be ashamed of in getting help for it. No one else needs to know (except your mom probably). Therapist will be understanding and once you get over the fear of the first visit, you'll be fine. Please consider telling your mom and getting some professional help. This is such a serious problem with such ugly - and life threatening consequences. Keep posting. There's lots of people here who know what you're going through. Mel

youneeak · 08-06-2002, 09:03 AM

Hi Lisa and welcome to the boards!!

Sorry I wasn't around sooner to reply to your posts, it's been a crazy week to say the least! But you will find that these boards are a great place for love and support from people who know what you're going through!! I love it here, it's so reassuring to have people understand you (whereas most of the people in my life just don't get it)

Changing moods is a sign of an ED, because, as I"m sure you know, ED's aren't completely about food. They're a mental game of fighting the demons in your head for control over your life! So as for waivering back and forth about whether or not you think you're sick, I can relate. I STILL do that. VERY VERY few people know about my ED, and some days I just want to tell everybody so they understand how sick I really am...but then other days I'm like "Oh, i'm just being melodramatic, I have this under control." You have to realize that this is the ED talking...if you think you need help, you deserve it and you should get it!

Have you told your mom about your problem THIS time? It might help. The more love and support you can get, the better it will be!!

This is nothing to be embarrassed about, it's a problem and you deserve help just like everybody else who has problems...

Good luck, and please let us know how you're doing! You can do this, you deserve a happy "ED-free" life!!

NEVER GIVE UP
~sarah~