FAILURE - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

CHICKLET · 08-06-2002, 08:51 AM

Yep the title says it all I feel liek the biggest faliure in the world, when u read why u will probably think oh grow up and get a life.
But what I feel right now makes me so depressed and i just feel like curling up and crying.

All day I have eaten nothing, nothing at all.
I drink water and coffee to curb my appetite, i drink the coffee black, so then i feel sick after it so i cant eat nothing, but no this time i had to put sugar and milk in it didnt I which made me feel hungry and i gave in, and i ate a chocolate bar and now i feel absolute disgust, I look at myself in the mirrors now and think "just look at yourself, u wil never be none inportant u r just fat and unliked"

This is a horrible feeling, sorry i just had to get that of my chest. sorry again.

youneeak · 08-06-2002, 12:44 PM

OH CHICKLET...I'M SO SORRY YOU'RE FEELING SAD!

Nobody would EVER say "grow up" or "get a life"!! EVER

We're all struggling with ED's too...I know what it's like to look at yourself after you've eaten and feel like you've gained 20 pounds. It's all in your head, though, sweetheart. Just try and remember that...

And you ate the chocolate bar because you were hungry. Your body needs food to survive, it's probably breaking down...Have you considered going to a doctor? I know that's a big step and if you're not ready nobody can make you go, but it might help you. You deserve to be happy!!

People love you for who you are...not what you look like! I hope you're feeling a little better!!

NEVER GIVE UP
~sarah~

melody · 08-06-2002, 04:41 PM

chicklet, please listen to sarah. Don't let the lies in your head convince you to let your body starve. You do need and deserve food. Mel