Help me!! - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

sweety88 · 08-06-2002, 04:05 AM

hey,
I have no problem bingeing on anything I can get my hands on, but when I try to throw up it just WILL NOT come up! I stand over the toilet for what seems like forever with my finger down my throat gagging like crazy, my stomach feeling like its inverting. But the food will not come up.

Sweety

youneeak · 08-06-2002, 12:27 PM

Oh sweety, I'm so sorry.

The binge/purge cycle is incredibly painful, both mentally and physically...and even though you are not actually regurgitating (sp?) the food, you are still causing harm to your body. Your straining your heart and your face muslces along with so many other things.

Have you EVER been able to purge? Maybe it' just something in your body...unable to do it...I don't know. But please consider help. Even though the food is staying in your body, you are still causing a tremendous amount of harm to your body

~sarah~

melody · 08-06-2002, 04:56 PM

Hi Sweety, we want to help you, but not by teaching you how to throw up... It's probably a good thing that you're not being able to throw up because maybe it will keep you from being sucked into the bulimia nightmare. Maybe your body knows it needs that food and it's going to hold onto it for it's health. I don't know - but I know that throwing up won't help you at all. Your teeth will rot, your throat will get damaged, and it goes on and on. Please see someone to talk out the feelings that make you want to throw up the food. Good luck, Mel