singingsmiles

Okay, so this has absolutely nothing to do with my ED, but I'm very angry and need to get some stuff out, so bare with me, please!

Well, see, my sister and my best friend both went on the same Mission Trip with our church together...I didn't go...so the other day my sister and I are sitting in the kitchen and she said something about my best friend and then i made a comment and she was like "why?" and i said "because she's MY BEST friend!" So my sister says "well, she's my friend TOO NOW!" And, so we got into this whole thing! She's going on about how she's on a whole different level of friendship with my friend because she went on a Mission Trip with her and there is a different vibe and friendship that comes from that! I was about to break down in tears! My best friend has not been my best friend for very long, but everything that my sister knows about my friend, I probably already know! I'm not sure if she told them all about her depression, or what, and my sister thinks I don't know, well news for her...I DO! I knew before anyone! I knew before she TOLD ME! She, told me that she had to do some "research" on some things because she thought something was wrong with her, and that was my first guess!! I, of course, didn't bring that topic up with my sister, because it's none of her business! If, my friend wants her to know, then she can know, but otherwise, no!

And, then I was looking at the pics from the trip, that my sister took! And there are a couple that are just my sister with my best friend! I want to tear them up! She's my best friend! I don't even have any pics like that with my best friend and my sister does! I think that seems wrong!

Maybe, I'm being all childish over this, but during freshman year [last year] another friend of mine was in cheerleading with my sister...She became closer with my friend, and part of the time they were closer than I was with that friend! It drives me up the wall! That friend also decided to tell my sister about the guy that i really like [which i had told ALL of my friends NEVER to mention around ANYONE in my family]. I was really mad at her for that, and now my sister has told her friends about the guy and they are all on my back now about him. And, about meeting him, and how they think I should go out with him, and why am I not going out with him! And, it drives me absolutely nuts! I think I might go crazy!

Okay, well, that was definetly not on the topic of my ED, but it drives me nuts. So, thanks for listening!

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