hey guys. I haven't been posting for a while, cos things are difficult at this end and I would have felt like a hypocrite because my ED behaviour is getting worse and worse. Still, I have been lurking and reading all your messages.
I'm saying farewell now. I only have access to a computer at work, and i've just been fired. (Mia's cycle of b/p has left me withdrawn, weak, and my work has suffered.) It's quite tragic really, but maybe now I will have plenty of time to get myself some help.
So, I just wanted to thank you all 'cos your messages really are an inspiration. There is so much care and hope in your words, they have made me cry and made me smile.
God bless, and good luck. Let's all be the best people we can be yeah. x
Oh, 9volt! Iím gonna miss you!!! Please do come back and say hi and how you are doing if you ever get the chance!
Iím extremely sorry to hear about all thatís happened, 9volt. Please DO take this as an opportunity to get yourself some help, and STICK with it. I mean it, 9volt; you shouldnít have to suffer like this . No one should. Youíre such a nice person and weíre all going to miss you very much and it would make this a whole lot easier if I knew for sure that you are going to get help and that everything will be alright. Because everything WILL be alright again one day, 9volt, but you and I both know that itís something that youíll have to work for. Something else I know Ė even if you donít yet believe me Ė is that you are an incredibly strong person to have come this far and you have the will power and the strength to overcome this.
Awww... you made me want to cry, 9volt! Weíre all gonna miss you so much!
Take care f yourself and donít ever let ANYTHING stand in your way Ė especially not in the way of your recovery or in the way of your own happiness.
One day I hope to hear from you again! I donít even know if you were able to read this message but I hope you could.
First of all, I was wondering how you'd been, it's been a while since you've posted (not that i can talk, cuz it's been a while for me too, I too have just been lurking for a while)
But I hope somehow you get a chance to read this. You will be missed!! Good luck with everything! And if you ever get a chance to stop by and say hi please do!!! I'll be thinking about you and praying for you. You deserve so much more than an ED has to offer!! But you're right, maybe you can get the help now that you don't have work all the time...you need help. You deserve help.
You're a wonderful person and you will be greatly missed....lots of love for now and until you have a chance to stop back and say hi!!! There is no such thing as goodbye...just a "see ya later." Take care of yourself, 9-volt, remember how beautiful you are.
OH! You're going to be missed so much, 9Volt. I can't even imagine your absence. I noticed that you hadn't been here along with Sarah and was ready to send out the dogs and police force to find you two, I thought for sure ya'll were together and having the time of your lives without us. But now I know that wasn't the case. I'm so sorry to hear that you've been having some rocky days lately. But as they said, don't look at this from the negative side, but rather the positive side. You can focus on YOU now. This is the most important thing anyone can do. You can focus on your happiness, you can spend time doing things for yourself rather than for your work. You're such a strong person and I'll never forget everything you've done for me. If you can give that much advice and change that many lives (And don't say you haven't done this because we all know you have) then think how much you CAN change your own life. It's possible. It's beyong possible...It's the 9volt way. Yes by golly, they should name it after you. I'm going to send that in...to...who knows. But I will. The 9volt way = being the nicest, strongest, most enduring person you can be....and then some. Good luck in everything that you do, 9volt. You're going to be missed so much. Sometimes I hate the computers because I know I would want to throw you the BIGGEST going away party ever. It would be so fun...but then reality sets end and well...reality sucks. Anyways, take care of yourself and remember, YOU'RE AS STRONG AS YOU LET YOURSELF BE. You can be as strong as an ox because you have it in you, but you just have to let yourself be that strong. LOVE YOU.