binge/restrict/exwecise ahhh - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

Caitlyn C · 12-27-2002, 11:22 PM

hey everyone i'm new here -- i used to post on aol if anyone else did. well anyway i'm a college student now -- gained a lot of weight cuz my ed was moreon the binge eating side and still is. Its so frustrating i came back weighed a huge amount and feel like i'm going to die i barely even want to leave. I binged tonite and feel horrible but i don't purge like no matter how much i want to i've gotten out of that habit. I ate way too much the past 3 days and today i just felt so out of control that i jsut kept eating and feel worse. I run abou an hour and 15 minutes to 2 hours a day since break start ed-- i dind' have that much time to run at shcool so i ran like 45 minutes to an hour a day a nd lifted i cant stand myself jsut thinking of what i ate today makes me sick -- ok this was really just a vent i'm sooooo sorry i just fee llike i have no one to talk to

Running Queen · 12-28-2002, 01:26 PM

You can always talk to the people on this board! We are all here to help!

I'm sorry to hear about your binge eating. How long have you had this problem? Have you gone to a doctor and a psychologist? Is there anyone you can openly to talk to? I would suggest you telling someone so they can help you. I have found that if I have someone to "report" to about my eating, I do better.

If you feel like you are out of control with your eating, try keeping yourself busy. After you eat a comfortable amount of food (not too full, but not hungry still) go for a walk, or take a little run. Try writing poems or going to the mall. Do anything to keep you away from the kitchen or food. I promise you'll feel better! ED's are horrible things and I believe that almost every girl has one because of the stupid media and those dumb pictures of super skinny models. That is not beautiful...beautiful woman are happy on the inside and out no matter how they look!

I hope I've helped! If you ever need to talk, just post and I'll try to help as much as possible!

HAPPY NEW YEARS!
Love, Jen

Caitlyn C · 12-28-2002, 11:37 PM

Hey thanks so much for responding. It really feels great to know that someone is listening. I don't really binge a lot but like with the holidays I have a lot of parties at my parents house and there is so mcuh food and i binge on that -- I don't even know that it is liek a true true binge but I do eat a lof of calories in one day i know that becasue i eat high calorie foods, but I don't binge a whole lot usually especially at school. I have had binges before though but i dunno if i'm truely a binge eater. I dunno maybe its denial again like i never thought i had an ed until now looking back i do realize that it wasn't just a small problem as i thought then. I'm so mad cuz we had a party tonite and i ate soooo much -- o well i guess life goes on. I haven't purged in like a year i want to but i don' t - unless u count exercising cuz i like do 1.5- 2hours a day of cardio but i dunno o well thanks for answering
Caitlyn C.

Caitlyn C · 12-29-2002, 12:32 AM

o i got professional help when i had like anorexia and stuff it didn't help to much though.