lilrayofhope

Oh, cleo...trust me when I say YOU DON'T WANT TO BE ANOREXIC. It might seem all high and mighty, a 'quick fix' for weight loss, even something cool and appealing, but the bottom line is it will kill you. Maybe you'll be lucky and it won't kill you physically but it will kill you emotionally. I'm anorexic and it has ruined my life. I've been anorexic for over a year now. I was hospitalized once only 2 months after I first started. Then again 10 months later at a very low weight. My body was literally eating off of itself. Did you know that you don't actually lose fat first? Oh no...muscele is the first to go. That includes your brain and heart. My heart shrunk and as a result my blood pressure dropped, my circulation was horrible, and you couldn't even feel my pulse anywhere my heart was so weak. At age 14...I could have had a heart attack. I was lucky and got to walk out of the hospital but most people aren't. Many people die. Actually...1 in 10 people that develope anorexia will die from it. In the beginning you feel wonderful, you lose weight, and feel in control. Well it doesn't last. Oh, no. You continue to lose weight because it's never enough. You begin to no longer be in control because you can't stop losing weight. You can't even eat a whole apple because nothing is 'safe' anymore. Water is even evil at this point. You're emaciated yet you see yourself like a huge blimp. "5 more pounds and I'll be able to eat". You drop 5 more pounds...it's still not enough. You're weak. Dizzy. You can't sleep. Your beautiful hair is falling out. Your heart races. You're always cold. You haven't had your period in over 6 months. You're always hungry. And then...this is the point where some people get help. It's right before their bodies die. Right before their minds lose their sanity. Anorexia...pretty? Oh no...it's nothing of the sort. Anorexia is a disease. It's a cancer of the mind. It distroys your life. Every relationship you ever had. It Ruins your future. And becomes your past.
i want to be anorexic. i'm jealous of all girls who are skinnier than me!
You DON'T want to be anorexic. I'm telling you this because I'm here. I'm anorexic. 'Ana'. And it sucks. You may get skinny. You may get a 'high' from not eating. But it doesn't last. No. Risking your life. Skrewing up your metabolism. Never being able to have kids because you got so malnourished you no longer got your period. Kidney damage. You brain shrinking. Liver failing. THAT lasts.

-Carlie

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