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((((((((( MELISSA ))))))))))

AWWWW! Sweetie! I'm so so sorry that you feel so alone. Bulimia is such an isolating disorder, both mentally and physically, that somedays it's hard to remember that there ARE people to support you, and there are peolpe who are going through the same thing as you. I promise you are not as alone as you feel, and one day you'll realize this.

Please don't giv eup hope that one day you'll be over this. THERE IS A WAY And you'll find it! Have you tried nutritionist, or maybe a different counseler. Counseling isn't for all people (I tried, and it just made things worse...but the important thing is that I tried...and so did you) You will find something.

Have your friends and family just recently found out about your ED. I know when mine first found out they were in such shock that the first few months were a living hell. They didn't understand and it was frustrating to all of us. But eventually we all got around the frustration and akwardness and now they're a huge part of my support and recovery team.

Trust me, Melissa, you can do this. I have so much faith in you. You really do, on so many levels, want to get better. Read your post again, you are trying to dig yourself out of this humungous hole, just remember you don't have to do it alone!

Also---don't beat yourself up too much about "being the one that put yourself there." Eating disorders are a mental condition. Nobody starts off by starving or purging by saying "hmmm, I think I want to kill myself slowly by eroding my insides and throw myself into this eternal pit of eating disorder hell." They're appealing on some levels, and then you get trapped in the cycle. Try not to beat yourself up over this. You can do it!!!!!

Take care of yoruself, girly, we're all behind you 110%

NEVER GIVE UP
~sarah~