Amarga

It's good to know there is a lil' ray of hope still to be found, I've been having the same problem, I'm home now and have resorted to throwing up in plastic bags in my room. I want some immediate solutions too, and therapy has helped, it's good you're able to see someone. I don't know your family, but I think a big part of stopping is to let people know you're not okay. For me, I get the urge to binge and purge when I've just had a rotten time with someone and am feeling alone and depressed about not having enough friends who value spending time with me. I feel you, it's hard to withstand the urge, the best thing I found is to start doing something else instead and eventually that becomes a habit that replaces the binging and purging. I guess this isn't really very helpful to you, but I want to say, from years of experience with obsessive compulsive behaviors, I've found my habits change when I move, but I'm still abusing myself through food. If you do have a supportive loving family, take advantage of that and let them know you're not okay. But don't judge yourself for not feeling alright, and don't let other people judge you for not feeling alright or maybe for feeling crazy, sometimes I think the most insane people are the ones trying to act normal like everything's fine, low-intensity warfare, rape, genocide, yeah, I'm okay. How can anyone be okay right now????