What shall i do? - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

Vikki81 · 09-08-2003, 07:32 AM

Hi
I'm new to this board and looking for abit of support. I have been struggling with food issues for some time now....about 3 years. I find i go though faces of restricting what i eat. I can go through the week eating very little but when it comes to the weekend i find it hard to restrict due to my parents being home. I find i over eat at the weekend then when they are at work i restrict. Because i work evenings i only see my parents when i get home late at night and early morning during the week. I desparately want to lose weight. I find i'm becoming obsessed about the whole thing. Its all i can think about. I weigh myself everyday except the weekend because i'm afraid of the number i will see on the scales after eating so much.

My question is do u think i have a problem? Its not like i'm underweight infact i feel over weight. I find i will only wear certain clothes i feel comfortable in. I can no longer wear my jeans. I hate myself and my body. I wish i could think of something else other than myself and food. I have thought about going to see a doctor but i think i would be accused of wasting his/her time. I'm currently weighing in at 135lb at 5'4.

Any advise appreciated

Thanks Vikki.

gettingsmaller · 09-08-2003, 01:49 PM

i wish i was 135 pounds. i am 5ft4 and weigh more then you. you are certainly not overweight. not eating then overeating is not good for you. talk to either your parents or to a school nurse or someone about it and they can help.

amwood · 09-08-2003, 09:56 PM

It doesn't matter what you weigh - if you're underweight, normal, or overweight - if you're obsessed with food, losing weight, and have a distorted/bad self-image, I would suggest getting help as soon as possible. I can tell you from personal experience, even when I was severely underweight I was worried about going to the doctor for the same reasons you are...she might think I was just wasting her time and would think I was a hypochondriac or something. But, I had the exact opposite experience...I didn't feel like I wasted her time at all...she referred me to a nutritionist and a therapist to work on my ed.
Don't worry about being a certain weight, because no weight is ever "good enough"...get help now, as you're beginning to recognize this as a problem, and before it really starts running your life (if it hasn't already). Good luck and don't wait too long!