I just don't understand - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

Urbanity · 09-19-2003, 10:07 PM

Hey guys,
I am now 15 years old. I used to always be real skinny and I started gaining weight last year. I gained 18 lbs without getting any taller. So I started lifting weights.Ive always done a LOT of excercise (19 hours of dance a week and 3 hours of running track a day). I started loosing and then gaining weight and I still stayed at 144lbs (5ft6in). I tried so many diets and some worked only for a little while. I always had good eating habits and to tell the truth, i have not had a soda or piece of candy for 3 years!
What I don't understand is that my best friend is 5ft 61/2 inches and only 114 lbs! She only works on the computer and eats constantly! not only that, she eats chocolate, Mc donalds, Pizza hut and all of the junk that I would NEVER go near.
Unfortunatly I got fed up and frustrated and I stopped eating about a week ago. I eat a litttle in the morning but thats it! i don't go to the cafeteria at lunch and I hate going out to dinner. but i lost a lb each day! it worked! I'm just afraid that this will be something that I can't get out of and I'll never enjoy a meal again!

What do you guys suggest?

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"I'm tryin"
Urbanity

IceSktnChik2046 · 09-20-2003, 02:34 PM

wow... to be honestly w/ u i dunno but not havin any replys to my boards get me kinda upset... so... if i had to give advice id say... i get y ur doin that... BUT DONT lol ... ok heres tha deal.. maybe you can lose weight by doing this but you really screw your body up... it sounds like ur really active which means you are healthy right now but if you keep this up ucant run any more... what happens is your body naturally eats fat as a source of energy... when your body doesnt get enough fat or food... then it starts to eat muscle which is easier so... it eats muscle then you have no muscle left... your heart is a muscle and it doesnt determine the differnce between your heart and your biceps... so it EATS UR HEART its bad jus trust me... ok i'm dun w/ muh lecture ...as for your friend... good 4 her... she has an incredibly fast metabolizm... i hate those ppl lol ... but you are healthier than her probably if she jus sits and eats junk food and you eat healthy and exercise ... you arent that fat... as a matter of fact ... you are around a normal weight which is good she is underweight or on the very low end of normal... so... jus eat healthy and excersice and u will do well... i guess i lied at the beginning when i said that i didnt no what to tell you :-) i hope this helps bye

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~muah at 13~

raindrop · 09-20-2003, 07:19 PM

hey Urbanity ~
u r not fat at all!! dont screw yourself up! icesktnchik2046 is absolutely right about your body eating muscle & EATING YOUR HEART. really think about that cuz it happened to me, it happens to people w/eds, & let me tell u, it is terrifying. i am a skater &dancer 2 & one of the most horrifying things is "feeling your heart dying." that sounds weird but i was actually aware of my heart slowly failing (i hate to write that it still scares me so much, but that was what was happening) but i felt so helpless to get myself out of what was happening 2 me.

yeah, just eat healthily (3 meals/day! really! start eating normal again b4 its too late! i totally cut calories & now im a binger; i say this cuz the longer u wait, the harder it is 2 get back 2 normal) & keep exercising & u will b fine. really. during puberty ur body gains weight but then it stops, honestly. just get through this period in your life. get help (counselor, doctor, etc.) if u can!

Urbanity · 09-20-2003, 10:13 PM

Hey,

Thanks guys, i really appreciate it. I understand what your saying but it seems like eating very little is working. Although, I never thought of the eating away at your muscle part of the deal (since I work so hard to gain the muscles, lol. I just wish there was a way to ask my body what to do to be its healthiest and best looking but I guess there isn't. It makes it even harder when there are so many different diets and ways to be "healthy" but you never know if it actually works!

I'll take your advice and get help. The last thing I want to do is to be unhealthy and have a failing heart but I just can't see a way out of it!

Urbanity

Indigo29 · 09-21-2003, 07:42 PM

Urbanity,
You are in the beginning stages of anorexia. This is a very dangerous disease. You need to seek medical attention and get on a healthy eating plan immeidiately. Speak to your school counselor, your parents, anyone who can direct you to the proper medical personell. Your body does burn fat initially but will reach a point where it has no fat to use and then your body will begin eating your muscles as food. Muscles include your heart, liver, kidneys, etc.

You need to eat to live healthily. Not eating candy and pop won't kill you but not eating anything will. Please seek professional assistance before you do major damage to your organs.