help with purging - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

letMEbe · 09-30-2003, 11:01 AM

i've been purging using laxatives for 2 years and i stopped 6 weeks ago. i dont know why but i feel bad and incomplete and i feel that im gaining a lot of weight without purging. yes i know that this isn't true but thats how i feel. i binge a lot and i'm not using laxatives anymore - mainly because my purging is getting quite expensive and i cant keep up. so i tried throwing up several times and i just can't do it, i'v tried every thing, using tooth brushes, using salt water punshing my stomch really hard, but i just cant do it. so can any1 give me some tips or tel me what i'm doing wrong? i know i could use ipecac but thats just way tooooo dangerouse so i'l only use it as a last resort. please dont send any hate mail, and please dont tl me what i'm doing is dangerous and wrong because I ALREADY KNOW!!! so only post if u can help me out. thnx
luv
sarah

fallen · 09-30-2003, 04:20 PM

letMEbe..i'm sorry you're having a tough time..i have a hard time stopping myself from the binging and purging thing also..i tend to go through phases..between not eating for a few weeks and then binging and purging on a daily basis for a few weeks..i keep telling myself i like it that way because it makes me feel better but at the same time it feels horrible too..i know if i couldn't do it i would go crazy so i really feel for what your going through but i'm sorry i just can't give you tips cause i know it would be wrong...i'm not gonna lecture you cause i know the consequences too and i still can't stop..or don't want to stop?? or hell maybe i really just don't care..hmm i don't know..but i just wanted to send you hug (((((letMEbe))))and hope things get better for you. Hang in there.

09-30-2003, 11:48 PM

Please do not post here asking for tips on developing an eating disorder. This forum is for support for recovery only. Thank you, Zesty/Moderator

[This message has been edited by Zesty (edited 10-01-2003).]