How did it start? - Eating Disorder Recovery Message Board

summer603 · 09-12-2003, 01:06 PM

I was just wondering exactly how did everyone's disorders come into existence? Did it start by someone's comment, or you just thought you were too fat, etc?

KatJ · 09-12-2003, 04:57 PM

Hey. Mine started out as a diet, as I think many peoples do! I weighed 270 and wanted to be thin, so I stopped eating for a whole year. I lost 150lbs, but I lost a whole lot more than that. I am currently bulimic, but trying desperatly to get better. The problem is that I am so off track. Anyways that is how it started for me.

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Katie

Kimberly315 · 09-13-2003, 10:38 PM

Mine also started as a diet...I wanted to lose weight quickly so I was only eating about 500 calories a day. Once I lost the weight, I was afraid that increasing my calories would make me fat. After a while, I thought ANYTHING I ate would make me gain weight so I pretty much stopped eating. It's weird how irrational your thoughts can be when you have an eating disorder.

mochi · 09-15-2003, 01:45 AM

mine did not start from adiet, it started when I was leaving a really bad relationship, it was how I reacted to alot of pain

paperdoll · 09-16-2003, 06:13 PM

ahhh! i almost can't remember, it was so long ago! i really was obese when i first started purging. i'd always been fat, since i was 5. then , when i was about 15, i felt like "will i ever be thin" and had to do something. i ate to the point of feeling digustingly full, which i hated too, so i just thought, why not get rid of it? then after i reached my goal weight, a nice normal 140, i wanted to lose an extra 5 lbs to give me a buffer in case i gained some accidentally. anyone else think like this? so i lost some more weight, liked my new weight but thougt i should probably lose an extra 5 just in case. and so on down to 100 lbs. i was so thin even i, with my messed-up self-image, thought i was too thin, i was just afraid if i gained any little ounce i would wind up fat again. yikes! i started throwing up 12 years ago, stopped almost one year ago.