Hi Presson
I'm sorry about the loss of your mother. It has been six years since the passing of my dad. It is hard when losing a parent. The memories will always be there, and we must remember that their legacy goes on through us.
You did wonderful making it through today. Taking a bubble bath versus a binge is a great idea. Good for you! Selling those skinny jeans- good job! Get rid of them. I am in process of doing the same. Only mine are collecting dust in our closet in the basement right now piled beneath the garage sale stuff. LOL
Laxatives are dangerous. Do all you can to get away from them. Take each day and part of a day at a time. Steer clear from them. I know how hard it is to get away from them as I too, abused them. But- I am now not using them and haven't for a very long time.
In treatment they teach a person the theory of taking each day one step/day at a time. And, it really is that- that is what makes logical sense. If a person does that, or hence, even part of a day, it can work. Focus on the moment at present, and it will work, and life can be enjoyable or maintanable.
Take care of yourself and focus on living life for you and your hubby. Live to be happy.
Coffeegirl