I thought I'd pop in here quickly and give everyone an update. Hopefully, next time I post here, my baby will be born! I'm now 10 days away from my due date (Dec. 12) though I'm suspecting I may go overdue in the end (many first time moms do).
I had been very scared to deal with pregnancy after an ED, even after being in recovery for so many years, but, honestly, there are worse things in life than being pregnant and gaining weight (for example, living with a full-blown ED was much harder than this). It was difficult in the beginning especially, gaining weight, but not really looking pregnant (I didn't look pregnant to strangers until I was in my 8th month of pregnancy). And while I have gained weight, it's not gone out of control either; I've probably gained the low end of the recommended amount of weight gain for pregnancy and I've been eating about everything in sight! (I worried needlessly about piling on extreme excess weight with pregnancy.) You do lose some control over your body with pregnancy, but it's not like I feel I've become a horrible fat monster either. I am lucky, I guess, in that I am carrying pretty much all of my weight gain in my belly and very little elsewhere. I've had a relatively easy pregnancy with no scares and have been exercising throughout pregnancy (the elliptical trainer/walking & light weight lifting). The weight lifting has been a lifesaver for me. I started it shortly before becoming pregnant (a month or so) and now have better muscle tone than I remember ever having my whole life, which gives me something positive to focus on about my body.
And somehow, I have even managed not to get stretch marks on my belly (hopefully, it stays that way!), which is surprising, since I do have them on my hips from rapid weight loss/gain with the ED and on my breasts as a result of birth control pills inflating my boobs rapidly.
Overall, I have to say, I found coping with a full-blown ED much harder than dealing with pregnancy after an ED. Granted, I did have down days and days where I haven't felt very attractive while pregnant, but I've never had any desire to start acting on ED impulses again.
At this point, though, I am so through with being pregnant, it's not even funny, but this has less to do with appearances and weight (actually, I haven't really gained weight this last month with pregnancy; it's common at the end to not gain much and even lose some) and more to do with general discomforts--back aches, hips ache, I'm nauseous a lot now, I have to wake up every hour to pee, etc. etc.
Anyway, I just thought I'd update everyone and encourage those of you in recovery or once you do recover and want to consider having kids...my experience hasn't been so bad.