I expect that there are few, if any, of the people that I used to spend hours talking with on here, that are still around.
Regardless of that though I wanted to start off your new year with a tale of hope.
I have suffered from an ed for 13 years. It started as anorexia-restricting type at age 14 and has been through ednos and anorexia-purging, back to anorexia-restricting. Ed's change sometimes - they evolve to fool you.
Anyway, some years back I finally got some help. Had the help of several therapists who made some small difference to me. I am still in therapy. Technically I still have an eating disorder. And this does not sound like a tale of hope just yet does it? But a few weeks ago something unexpected changed my life. After years of amenorrhea I discovered that I was pregnant.
It was almost unbelievable to me that this could have happened. But some fluke of nature means that my body defied all the outcomes predicted by my doctors.
I hope my baby will be ok, I am fighting with all my heart and soul for the first time ever since this all began...
Maybe a baby is not what you would all wish for. But there is hope for all of you. Hope that something will finally become so much more important to you than the ed. Something so important that you are more scared of losing that then of finally fighting back against your ed.
I wish you all the luck in the world. May your dreams come true in 2008.
H
