MariaBB

I hate to say it, and I don't recommend this to anyone, but whats helping me is that I quit my weekly therapy sessions back in May. Every week my therapist asked me what my weight was. I really liked going to therapy, and liked my therapist a lot. My husband and family never really seemed to pay much attention to me. I felt the only one giving me attention and caring about me was my therapist. Therefore, I had to "stay sick" to maintain the relationship with my therapist.

He went on a three week vacation in May which interrupted our sessions. It was during that period that my anxiety about food and exercise decreased and I began to feel OK about myself again. So I never went back, and I'm doing good. My self-esteem is better, my health is better, and I feel great. I am more than my ED. It is no longer my sole identity.

There are benefits to recovery that I never thought of. Things like clearer skin, longer nails, shinier hair, more energy, less depression, etc. I've even rekindled some of my old interests and hobbies.

So no, I don't recommend anybody quit seeking help. But yes, there is life beyond your ED. And for me it's all been good.