Re: Is this purging disorder?
Purging disorder is a fairly new diagnosis but it's when you don't binge before thowing up and their is not set number of times per week or frequency that is use to determine this.
It's not anorexia, bulimia or EDNOS so I can understand that you feel like you don't have a eating disorder. But why would you want to feel like you have an eating disorder?
Right now, an eating disorder has not completely taken over your life and destroyed your health. You are able to stop for a couple of weeks.
People with full blown eating disorders can't turn this off-it's a 24 hour torture. It destroys lifes, careers, families etc. and when you want to recover it takes years!
"I'm fighting to not let it go. I want to get better but I dont want to give them their satisfaction"
Are you really willing to develop a mental disorder just so that you can get back at your parents for taking away your scale?
Step back and think about the logic in that sentence: They took away my scale so I am going to (Self-harm) by holding on to my eating disorder to get back at them.
"I want to be in control of my own life I want to want to stop this but they're forcing me and it's making it worse"
The percentage of people who are able to self-recover from a full blown eating disorder is very small-their is usually so much physical and mental damage that most people relapse. This isn't a broken arm that just needs time to repair; it's a mental disorder.
If you want to stop but you are at the point where you can't then you need help.
Being forced to work a program and follow a meal plan doesn't feel good but if you have tried to get better on your own and it didn't work out-accept the help.
What is this??
Right now, you are at the point where you can work on getting better and move on and forget.
It could also be the start of a more serious problem like bulimia.
Put yourself in your parents shoes-your making your sick and they trying to protect you so they took away your scale and they are asking you to go to counseling.
Is what they are doing so bad that you are willing to hold and/or develop a full blown eating disorder? (There is no going back -at least, without professional help once you develop bulimia.)
That's the thing with eating disorders; they're progressive; you tell yourself that you have control and you start off with something small and then it turns into something more serious that you can't stop or forget.
Please accept the help before it takes over and ruins your life.
Last edited by aileb; 03-26-2010 at 05:41 PM.