Re: Anorexia Nervosa - dangers of low BMI
They took out your BMI so I don't know how low you want to go but i'm assuming it's enough to put you below the anorexic BMI category.
I kept mine below the anorexic BMI category for 6 years and almost all of my health problems occured during and after recovery.
Gaining the weight back caused lot's of digestive problems because I also abused laxatives. It also took a toll on my heart and I felt really tired. I was surprised to learn that more people with anorexia die of heart attacks when they go through recovery (this fact has kept me too scared to relapse).
Everyone is different but for me (I had these problems during recovery):
gall bladder removed
low blood pressure
gastritis (irritation of the stomach lining caused by the stress of recovery)
I also had the typical health problems caused by a low BMI: purple nails, hair loss, feeling really cold, irrational thinking, dry skin etc...
After 18 years, has your health been damaged too?
I was scared to let go of this disease because I had these questions and thoughts in my head: If i'm not anorexic then who am I? "If I let go of my anorexia, I am going to lose control." I also could not remember what it was like when I was not anorexic. How did I cope?
I am going through counseling and learning to seperate myself from the disorder. I have these CBT strategies that i'm suppose to use daily that are also helpful.
I know that it's not easy. We can't decided to get better for our family or for other people. Full recovery is one of the hardest things you are going to do. DON'T do it for your kids or the hubby because recovery is not a straight line. Their are times that you are going to have setbacks. (if you do it for your kids and the hubby, the setbacks are going to make you feel like you let them down.)
In the show intervention, they always say that recovery is a gift. Can you look at it that way? Recovery is a gift that you are giving yourself.
I had to hit bottom and lose my job, health, and friends to decide to get better.
I am no longer in the anorexic weight category because I had to gain weight during recovery. I am still struggling because I am not use to being in the "normal" weight category.
In the beginning, I was also angry. Sometimes, I still am. But now that I have been in recovery for a couple of months, there are whole days, when I don't have eating disordered behaviors and it feels really good.
It's been a couple days since you posted. Are you still feeling like you want to get lower?
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