xthegeminix

backround info

my ed started in HS I was overweight and made fun of and picked up odd habits to get it off I ended up truly starving my self after gaining some back and ended up at an ed clinic at 22 (I am in partial recovery for the past few years) I am 27 now

I have been here a few times and right now I am about to cry my body still gives me hell (I never finished treatment at my ed clinic years back, I had a choice of college or what my mom calls the luxury of an ED treatment) my parents still woun't allow or believe its still a problem. I haven't restricted that I am aware of I have always had appetite problems, somehow they have gotten worse I also after gaining a little weight back get a severly distended (bloated stomach) that gets bigger as the day goes on. I am ready to cry and rip my hair out my mom believes at 27 my excuse at my body is an adhd tactic to avoid work. I reply its a little hard to work when your hungry (ravenous) even thou your sticking to your calorie intake set up by my nutrisionist, I go over a little and don't really worry that much at this point. I can't be chained to a frige eating all day and night either. I am male which makes this more embarresing.

I started with and ed in HS. I don't know what to do I have a small savings acount to open up to continue treatment I am not even sure my ED clinic can help with what ever metabolic state I am in. (then its a waste of money)

I am scared my mother rides me that its just a mental disorder that makes me agitated when I keep telling her all this (she thinks because I get out for one or two hours maybe a night or two a week its really inmaturity and add and I don't want to do anything with my life).

The last year all my gastro found was mild non erosive gastrites (said it couldn't be causing this and it was hunger, and a very small hiatal hernia which couldn't cause this. I have had colonoscopys and endoscopys and if I can't get my body to be quiet and stop driving me insane I am <upset>. I made an apoint monday back at my ed clinic nearly going broke they only charged me half the price of evaluation when they heard what I said was happening. My mother had very negative comments about they program and thought the nutrisionist was just trying to teach me how to starve my self in a healthier manner. I feel like I have no one to turn to.