Welcome to the boards.
Were you professionally diagnosed with anorexia or are you going by symptomatology(symptoms) alone?
The thing about fighting an eating disorder is that a person can research all there is to on the specific disorder and at the end of the day,still be left with the frustration of feeling helpless.
The fact that you've both made progress and realize that there is more to be accomplished are admirable traits.Be proud of what you have accomplished thusfar.
Family and friends aren't going to understand the nature of your ED to the extent that you hope they will.In general,people tend to focus on a person's physical appearance as the
determining factor regarding health.
Please don't try to view this as being a disappointment to anyone;especially yourself.
In my opinion,there are neither winners or losers,when it comes to ED recovery.There are those who recover and the others struggle towards recovery.
If day therapy isn't an option for you at this point,how about seeing a therapist who specializes in eating disorders? Some may have evening hours.
How do you feel about the possibility of taking medication?
There are online ED groups to consider also.