Eating Disorder? Depression? I don't know. I am 27 and have battled my weight all of my life. Ten years ago I went from 230lbs to 150lbs and then over the years gotten down to 127lbs. I have been depressed since my early teens but was not diagnosed until about a year ago. After I eat I feel guilty but while I am eating I feel good. I work out about two hours a day, five days a week. I tend to eat huge quantites when there s no one around to see me but only eat little bits when people are around 'cause I don't want to look like a pig.
People say I look fine and don't need to loose any more weight but I feel they are just being nice. My constant need to work out has cost me friends and has caused many fights with my husband.
I can't seem to be able to run my own life. It feels as if the food is what is running my life. I feel like my days revovle around food. Whether I'm searching for something to eat or thinking about when the next time I can eat will be.
I constantly feel as if I have to loose more weigh and need to tone a little more. But it seems every time I loose a couple pounds I feel like a couple more need to come off. I step on a scale at least twice a day and also measure my waist every other day. I feel tired and hopeless. I want to feel good about the way I look.
Some advice please....