thanks for the reply. i had my christmas dinner today and stupid be restricted on that only had turkey boiled veg and a small piece of stuffing. i felt like crap
but when i went out to a friends i made up for it just ate crap when i say crap i had a profiterole roll a small piece then i had a thick piece of toast with jam( the toast scared me abit because i have been suffering with bloated feeling i know its normal but it bloody hurts). i have just got home and had a chocolate bar and a milkshake.
i am feeling better but i still dont think i have reached the minimum of 2500. i know its my eating disorder telling that the 2500 is the max but i know its the minimum i have been told by the doctor to enjoy christmas and just eat what i want.
its my body telling me to eat it. it needs allot more than 2500 calories to recover and i am trying to push the eating disorder over and say no i want to eat the chocolate or cream or milkshake or anything i can because food is fuel to repair its self.
i want to get back to a normal life and not worry about whats in the food i.e. calories or saturated fats(this was my biggest fear but i need the fat for my body to repair)
i am reading that people are aiming for 3500-4000 calories a day yes this daunting but i know if i want to get better i need to aim high. i'm just scared that i might binge (but i think thats the ED talking)