i know i have an eating problem. my eating habits are far from normal. i wont eat anything at all, except maybe a salad and some fruit.
but and its become more frequent (everyday), i find myself almost like binging, but its not really binging, because i chew and spit everything i get cravings for. it cant be anything, i don't even distinguish between whats 'good' and 'bad' anymore. i just feel like eating anything will make me fat.
i will chew and spit everything , even things like pasta, bread, vegetables, fish, and junk food.
i restrict everything, but then i will literally just spend hours eating and eating and spitting it all out.
i dont know what it is, its not bulimia because ive never purged in my life, and anorexia i dont think so, because i crave food and c/s it out.
im 5'4, 117lbs (used to weigh 137lbs four months ago), which is healthy and to me, it's not at all skinny, i still see fat everywhere on me when i look in the mirror and i know my attitude and my habits arent normal. but im unsure to what problem i have.
i feel horrible, with my weight, appearance everything. and i hate feeling insecure, especially when people say to me, i look fine, theres nothing wrong with me. my close friend, has been telling for months to just stop. but i don't know how.
any ideas on what this is ?