What's wrong with me?
I've struggled with my weight my entire life, I was the fat girl that was ridiculed in school and overlooked by society in my adult life.
Up until three years ago I was a binge eater, I pigged out on all sorts of junk food three times a day, I didn't drink water and I only drank sugar sweetened drinks.
I have been on a perpetual cycle of weight loss and weight gain since I was about 13(I'm now 29)
My highest weight was about 400 pounds.
Now I'm about 200 pounds lighter, thanks to a radical change in my diet, I get compliments all the time about how small I look.
The problem is when I look in the mirror I still see a huge, fat lady, I see myself as extremely wide and obese still.
I only drink coffee, tea and water, no sweetened drinks, my diet is very well balanced, I take a vitamin and drink coffee for breakfast.
I eat one meal a day(usually at 3 or 4 PM each day)and then I eat a cup of yogurt and either a handful of pretzels or a granola bar at around 9 PM, I don't eat anything else between these meals, I sometimes eat a little more but that's usually only a few times a month.
On a normal day I can go 19 hours without eating.
I would also like to mention that I am terrified of being hugely fat again.
Do I have an eating disorder? Is my diet normal?