I have known for some time that I have a problem with food, however I have felt too embarrassed to admit it and I have always said to myself 'this is the last time.' I have still not spoken to my family or friends about my problem, however today I have spoken to the eating disorder association and I have an appointment for next tuesday to discuss my issues. I have a problem with binge eating and I do this 2-3 times a week. When I do it I tend to go for sweet foods such as cake and chocolate and I eat until I feel sick. I eat so fast that I don't even taste what I am eating. I hide this from my partner and make excuses to go out so that I can do it or I have even locked myself in the bathroom so that I can do it. I hide the wrappers in the car or the back of the wardrobe. I have very low self esteem and I do not feel that I am worthy of my partners love and I often wonder why he is with me. I have attempted to make myself sick on many occasions and taken laxitives. At the moment though I have changed this to over exercising to compensate. I am not overweight, but my weight does flucuate around 6-7lbs. My family and friends all think that I am really fit and healthy because I eat healthy meals and lots of fruit and veg, however they do not know that I secretly binge. Even if I do have a daily treat I still have these binge days and I just do not know wht to do.
The following user gives a hug of support to Vic M:
Thank yourself for first admitting you have a problem.
Are there any eating disorder specialists,or nutritionists in your locale?
I get the feeling of hiding in plain sight,as it seems to be a natural occurrence with the majority of us plagued with eating disorders.
If you are up to speaking more on this,know that i'm all ears(or eyes in this case )and will try to reply to any responses you post.
Thank you for replying. I have an appointment at the eating disorder association tomorrow, it's about 25miles from where I live. I am really nervous, I have never spoken to anyone about it. I feel so low and I hate it when I binge. I just dont want to do it anymore. Are you going through treatment?