Originally Posted by helives
You do not know how great a relief it is to hear someone else is experiencing the same difficulties as me. Its frustrating and very confusing. You feel like you should be ok becuase of your weight gain but still think about food in exactly the same non stop obsessive way right? I know people say that in an eating disorder you begin to think of food all the time becuase you body is very hungry however these experiences of half recovery prove that it is much more complicated than that. I find it very difficult at home becuase my family don't have any sympthathy for helping me now becuase they don't realise that I'm still just as ill inside. I get shouted at rather than loving concern now for not eating ajd it is seen as me just being difficult.
@Helives, I know exactly what you mean. When I was 'thin', my family expressed much concern about eating/not eating and nowadays (since I've gained weight), it's exactly how you say it - it's being difficult.
And I feel that it's sort of 'forgotten' that I have an eating disorder because my physical appearance now doesn't match what anorexia looks like, so when I go food shopping with my family, they get annoyed/angry when I say that I have to eat this or that I can't eat that. And they say 'can't you just eat this?' but they just don't understand the complexity of this illness.
And yes I do feel and think about food in EXACTLY the same way as before - continous obsession with food and calories and exercise.