Eating Disorder - Dont know where to turn
Well I'm Chris, and I have a form of autism called Aspergers Syndrome. I developed OCD around 3 years ago now, and it was during a very stressful period in my life. I radically changed my diet myself, because I was certain that specific foods were causing me to feel sick (Milk and Egg) and so I decided that all foods in the supermarket were going to contain these mostly. I took the chance and went vegan around 3 years ago, and when I developed the OCD I started to cut out even more foods from my diet.. mostly on grounds that they contained ingredients that I think are poisonous or would hurt me in some way. Been cutting loads of foods out, and now I feel weak and tired all the time. The original OCD was nothing to do with foods, but it sort of latched onto it and has caused this big mess.
Each time I eat food now, I start to panic and feel weak. I get migraines and panic attacks constantly. I went to see the nurse and she told me that I sounded a little anemic and to include some foods into my diet... which I cannot do due to the eating disorder. Ive gotten to the point now where by Im petrified to eat food, yet know I have to in order to keep my energy levels up and not collapse or something. I don't want to become ill, as this was all about the complete opposite.
Ive spoken to my Councillor, and she just told me that I should drink smoothies and put as much proteins into my diet as I can bear.. I don't know where to turn with this anymore.. its like nobody understands my problem, and I have absolutely no control over it.
Who can I turn to? What can I do to stop this going further?