Hey, im new to this site and am really hopeing someone might be able to give me a bit of advice.
I have had bulimia for 8 years and it started through my issues because of post traumatic stress disorder, I spent 8 months in hospital and did really well with the recovery but being overweight in a mostly underweight unit was difficult.
I was discharged 4 months a go and in those months things have really changed and got very difficult in a way I never thought they would, I am pretty much restricting every single day and only eating one meal which would be under 400 calories, and its getting more and more of a issue and more obsessive. I didn't realise how bad it had got until I went away for a week to stay with friends and everytime we sat to eat a meal I was having panic attaks, crying and getting really distressed at the thought. the other day I had 1 piece of toast, a bowl of veg soup for lunch and a yoghurt for tea and felt like it was a huge binge.
I know rationaly it wasent as I used to have very large binges. I really don't no what to do or how to deal with all these new feelings, its a complete switch from the bulimic Ella who I was. Im now always standing infront of the mirror feeling every bit of my body before and after food. I want it to stop.