i have been in recovery for 7 years now since my anorexia wasn't caught and i starved my mind and body, and i am just starting to loss all hope i will ever put an end to hunger. I am tired of the memory loss and the constant hunger , tired of how strained it is to keep up with friends since it effected my ability to finish college, and simply tired of the fact that when my body is craving food twenty four seven until it fills back up I'm not enjoying the things i used to ( IE READDING, MOVIES,ATHLETIC ACTITIVITES, and of course LEARNING) I am seeing a specialist in NYC acctually a doctor"IRA SACKER" to see if there is anything that can be done to speed up the recovery process and improve my quality of life .I am just running out of hope and the belief there is anything left in life for me.I was wondering if anyone had any words of encouragement.
The following user gives a hug of support to xthegeminix: Phoenix (04-05-2013)
its just hard at times i feel i am just eating my life away trying to refill my body and mind from anorexia; while all my friends are moving foward with thier lives getting good jobs and getting new cars. i am stuck here chained to my parents fridge like an overgrown dog i told them i would never forgive them for not catching me in time.I hate having this overwhelming ager towards my loved ones ,and i hate myself feeling like as a child with a mental disorder ( adhd) all i did was self medicate with food and now all i have is food.
Know that you are much more than food;so much more.
Please try not to compare accomplishments,as some are later bloomers than others.
I used to blame my parents for my shortcomings but in the grand scheme of things,it molded me into the person I am today.
One could argue that if I didn't experience A or B, I might not be here on this board today.
This board has helped me in so many ways,as people really show concern for one another and are non-judgemental.
Do not be defined by your disorder.........
You are so much more than that.
I apeciate all the support my doctor who i was working with said that even thou you are in recovery and trying to heal your mind and your body that you should still try to be a person , that meens not to isolate and to go out and see friends ,and enjoy life.I was just wondering thou if anyone had any advice when it came to curbing your cravings better thru out the day in recovery ,for instance foods that really gave you energy and that improved mood.I just find it very difficult to get thru the day and that my doctor even agreed I should really be taking in more calories during the day then I am at this point.
During the course of my eating disorders, I was underweight for 5 years. When I was told that my ideal body weight range was higher than I would ever let myself weigh, I was scared, but I also knew that staying underweight was making me have cravings all the time that would lead to bingeing and purging. The physical state of being underweight can increase symptoms and cravings. Have you ever read "Keys' starvation study"? If you haven't, you should look it up.
When I reached my body's true ideal weight, it took me around four more years to fully recover (I was both bulimic and anorexic. The bulimia took longer to heal), but reaching a normal weight made my symptoms and cravings much less extreme over time.
It will take a while for your brain to build new pathways that will help you think in more healthy ways, but each time you move toward recovery, you strengthen those pathways.
Last edited by OnWithHope; 05-29-2013 at 02:10 PM.